an update for you all :)

Hi all sorry I haven't blogged for ages I've been a busy bee I've gone into my own business now as I for made redundant as my boss sold the shop so I rent a chair in a salon 2days a week n the rest mobile having days off in between the salons lovely real nice staff I'm glad I've gone there:)
I had my dreaded op Monday and never again I had the root of my abcess removed and a cleft lift whatever that is :/ I had ongoing abcesses at the bottom of my spine so u can imagine the pain right now so uncomfortable!!ouchy:(
Apart from that my illnesses r still hanging around being pests but pretend there not there anymore I keep going regardless.
I'm going to see a medium soon I love it esp when my brother comes thru gives me great comfort :)
I'm off for now catch up with you very soon much love roxy Xx.

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my solo career eeek

I've been made redundant after spending 5years at this salon I've been working in as the shops been sold so I'm going solo:O
I'm worried about it but sure it will be ok once the dust is settled it will prob be the best thing I could have done and don't have anyone telling me what to do yeyyyy lol
All this worrying has put me off my food and the smiles dissapeared its just sad leaving ppl u have got use to for so long but that's life isnt it just don't want all this starting my m.e off again I've gota fab bf and brill mum sis bro etc so ill get there:)
Eeek its my op soon I'm dreading that as ill die of bordham whilst recovering lol but gota be done :)
Right off to the landof zzzzzzz :)

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my smoking journey begins again

Hey everyone silly me started smoking again :( so today I've started patches and the mouth spray which is vile!! But I'm determined to try again and again its not as easy as people think!!
Omg did I tell u all I seen lee Evans a few weeks back?? Omg he was amazing!!! It made my year I think he's fab
M.e/fibro wise I'm not too bad at the mo I kinda pretend its not there but of course as you know we have out ups and downs :/
I've started zimba last week and love it!!I'll be tiny by Xmas I no I've seen more fat on a cold chip but its all good fun well I'm gona luv n leave u now catch up soon wish me luck with the no smoking :) xxxx

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my update of my recent antix

Hey all don't ask how the smokings going:/ I've let myself down I started smoking when drinking and came off champix too soon so I'm back on them again :)
I still haven't had my op (at the bottom of my spine there removing the whole root out of my abcess as ive had 8 in 16mths)
I got no patience when it comes to waiting!!
I've been told my salon might have sold so I'm gona be made redundant so still deciding what I'm gona do I'll probably go mobile at least all moneys my own and I can do my own hours:)
I wish this weather would make up Its mind too some summer its been I dread the winter months as we dont mix and never a nice time of year for me and the family :(
I think that's about it from me for now speak to u soon luv me Xx

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my lil update

Hi all just updating you on my little travels etc what a mad few weeks I've had I'm on day 56 of no smoking and finding it hard I've had the few cigarettes whilst socializing n drinking I don't enjoy it but it defo calms me down its a habit I'm gona get out of,its my brothers birthday Sunday I hate it cos he should be here celebrating I miss him so so much so happy birthday to you bro u don't know how much ur missed:'(
Work wise has been nuts would you believe someone pinched my scissors in work! of all things I need!! I brought some new ones but that's not the point I thought I could trust clients obviously not :/
Me and my boyfriend are on the rocks what do u do when someone doesn't trust u yet u have done nothing wrong and nothing to provoke it do u stay or go??
A relationship is about trust in my eyes without trust there's nothing
And last but not least I got a medical accessment for esa they just wana no how I cope with everyday living with these illnesses what is the point in me explaining myself there not gona listen and I get the same thing but u don't look sick:/what does being sick look like what am I suppose to act like!!its inside not out but we will see thanx for reading and catch you soon xxxx

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4 weeks of no smoking

I'm on my 4th week of no smoking and do I feel better for it??? noooo I feel exactly the same as I did when I smoked so not sure if it was good/bad me giving up I'm loving the fact I got money to spend on myself tho but becoming a bad shopoholic :/ I was told I have to reward myself so I am:)
On another note I went to see my specialist yesterday and explained how bad I've been as this is the worst I've felt in a long time and starting to understand where I'm going wrong I'm trying to fit too much in one day so gota even my week out then I should start feeling better or I'm never gona recover!!! I'm planning on trying the coeliac diet to c if it makes a difference but its not always easy to get all them kinda foods in local shops any advice would be great I'm off for another nap I'll keep u updated on my travels/adventures soon :) xxx

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stopping smoking

Hi all!!I'm now at 3weeks and a day of no smoking:) I had a drag last weds and did absolutely nuthing for me so I might be on to a winner here:) I honestly never thought I'd ever give up!! I've suprised myself and ppl around me.
I'm using champix which I take twice a day the only thing I've found hard with them is that there's no nicotine involved so ur basically alone all the tablet does it send msgs to the brainto say its not nice, I never I realised I had will power lol I had a certificate yesterday in the smoking class and a party :) it use to be weekly now its changed to fortnights as were tested how we cope alone but I'm finding the weeks easier but suprisingly dont feel any better yet but at the mo I'm just getting use to being a non smoker and saying no and smelling so so much better I love it but shopping for England :) any extra advice you can give would be fab xxxx

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a life of m.e/cfs and fibromyalgia

Hi all people often ask me what it feels like to live with these illnesses to be honest theres no way you could describe it it just feels like you have ran a marathon and never reached the finish point and a hangover at the same time. I hate it when people say to me 'aw poor you' etc i don't want any sympathy i just want some understanding and would be nice not to feel like I'm lying or degraded some of us are worse then others were not all the same and were not the same everyday we varie from day to day depending on activities we did the day before or through out the day here i list some of the common symptoms :-
Overwhelming and persistent fatigue or tiredness, especially after doing things that didn’t used to make you feel exhausted. You may notice the fatigue straight away or it may take a day or two to kick in and is not relieved by rest. This delayed reaction is a distinctive feature of M.E. which can help doctors to make a diagnosis.
Feeling generally unwell or malaise which is similar to feeling like you have the flu. A sore throat with or without swollen glands.
Pain is common and can be felt as aching in the muscles and joints, pins and needles, muscle twitching and headaches or migraine.
Sleep difficulties such as needing to sleep excessively or not being able to sleep, unrefreshed sleep, waking in the early hours, light, dreamy, restless sleep and sleep reversal (for example, sleeping from 4am till midday).
Problems with thinking such as concentration difficulties, memory problems, difficulty finding the right words and problems organising thoughts.

Problems with the digestive system such as nausea and loss of appetite, indigestion, excessive wind, bloating, stomach cramps and alternating diarrhoea and constipation.

Problems with the nervous system including poor temperature control, sweating, dizziness and difficulties with balance and vertigo.

Increased sensitivity to alcohol, medication, some foods, bright lights, noise and odours.

these are just some of the symptoms we have to live with on an everyday basis please take time to understand these illnesses before asking questions and think your self lucky when all you have is a cold etc yes we could be worse but its still not nice to live with on an everyday basis  thanks for taking time to read this blog it really means alot :) xXxXxXxXxXxXx

I wana cry every time I see this

Sky News: Dog Survives Being Bound, Shot And Buried

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storys from the salon

People ask me what its like working a Hairdresser I can tell u its interesting and not just about cutting hair u have to deal with everyone and everything here are a few quotes and storys of experiences in my 10yr career.....

I once had a lady who use to come In when I first started at the salon I work at now, she kept coming in weekly and everytime she did she smelt of sick!it was getting to me cos sick isn't the nicest of smells lol I always thought it was her perfume it was getting worse every week and one day as I was doing her hair I noticed sick all downher top I just thought she spilt her breakfast down herself it continued this way for weeks smelling worse!!
It was so bad this one day I put vicks all up my nose and could still smell her I washed her hair and sick came out and it was all down her trousers shoes n top front and back!! So I had to warn her for health and safety reasons it got so bad she was being sick over the toilet,by the desk,in tissue as you were doing her hair:/ all customers were complaining so we had to tell her she couldn't come anymore. the last Day she was in she weed herself ruining all our chairs and then as she stood up poo came down her leg she dropped her sick tissues on the floor and sick in the toilets that had to stop very sad story as she didnt realise but sounds horrible but I'm not a homecare worker I'm a Hairdresser!! .......

Another story
I had a lady who was 78 and a good laugh she called me over one Saturday and what she told me I've never forgot lol we were having a convo on beauty creams etc and she asked if I used talc I replied no cos it blocks the pours she then said 'I put it on my fanny so I don't smell of fish! What I do is have a bath lie back on the bed and put it on' I couldn't believe my ears lol...
A few weeks later she said she gave her hubby blowjobs n he goes down on her a thing I dnt even wana think about lol

Hope u have enjoyed these storys let me know and I'll put more :)Xx

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shout out to pet lovers (cat wheelchair)

Hi all I was wondering if anyone out there can do me a huge huge favour does anyone out there no any handy men who love making things!? I looking for someone to build me a cat wheelchair my cat fell out of a tree 13 yrs ago and broke her back and legs she was given 6 mths max to live but she's still here I absolutely adore her!! But these last few mths I've noticed her too legs have stiffened completely and breaks my heart to see her dragging them she's often in pain but I carry her everywhere I can.
I've looked wheelchairs online and there approx £500 its money I simply haven't got I've been trying to find places that donate them with no luck and its starting to get me down as I don't know what else I can do there was a man selling them cheap but he's vanished off eBay if u know anyone please let me know I'd be so so greatfulxxx

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Just a pic I found of some m.e symptoms not sure if you can see it

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a quick update for u all

Hi everyone thought I'd POP by.and say hello its been a week today since I've given up smoking and defo isn't getting no easier hopefully it will in time:) I've got my smoking classes for a few more weeks to keep me going and great support from friends and family :)
Health wise I've not been to great but forever over doing it its such a hard illness to explain u just feel like ur hungover n ran a marathon at the same time and it doesnt go away that's just the start of the long list of symptoms but I am trying my best to get better sadly there's not Much of a success rate with it(those who don't know me I have m.e aka chronic fatigue syndrome and fibromyalgia)
The bank hols coming up what's ur plans?I'm having a celebration with my boyfriend and his friends were going out Sunday so got plenty if time to prepare before I go partying as I suffer for weeks after I'm off now sending luv n hugs to u mwah xxxx

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roxy returns :)

Hi all sorry I haven't updated but I'm finally here where do I start?? It's been a crazy few weeks my gramps passed away bank hol Mon just glad there's no more suffering.
I'm still smoking a few cigs naughty me giving up smoking is Soooo hard if I don't have my few drags in the morn or before I go to bed I'm not a happy bunny lol I'm trying my best though I've cut down from 17-3 a day that's still a huge improvement esp for me!!
Im suffering badly with my illnesses lately too don't know if its cos of giving up smoking or what but have u ever felt that poorly u don't want to move or felt that hungover u feel like ur dying that's how we Feel everyday but I try and stay positive but its hard when u feel like it every 2nd of everyday right I'm off folks now I know what I'm doing I'll be back more often sending love n hugs to u all n wish me luck on no smoking mwah xxx

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i love this poster!!it says it 2 a t!!!

asked to take part in a m.e/cfs test

hey guys n girls!!
Recently ive been asked to take part in an experiment of herbal medicines based over 10 weeks with 4 consultations and an everyday diary on how these medicines are working/not working its all free ive been speaking to her looked the place up im meetin her i have to do a full consultation and a blood test at my gps so  its all real etc what are your views on this? and have u tried it? any advice would be helpful thanking u mwah!!x

tomorrows the day!!/weekend

Hi All tomorrows the day i go and pick up my prescription to stop smoking im not confident all all just dreading the mood swings and changing my routine of everyday living but we will see!ill be very shocked if i do give up but looking forward 2 being able 2 spend money on my self and not burning it away on fags wish me luck!!
hope u all had a lovely weekend friday night i went out for a meal with the boyfriend and yesterday my friend had a party (she does every weekend)that house never fails 2 make me laugh everyones so welcoming i love that:)nothing worse them bitchy ppl but if they do try that they will be in for a shock as im like a rotreiler wen im angry lol ciao for now mwah xx

mondays the day eeek

hey all i went to the no smoking clinic yesterday and i get given my champix Monday to give up smoking dreading it with a passion as i can never imagine me to ever quit smoking but we will see so if u see me getting a bit irritated etc just give me a kick up the backside and i should be OK but apparently champix are ment 2 b brill!!but I'm not expecting miracles even if i cut down i will be happy :)im gona need so much support from you lot so support from you all will be brill thanking you!!


Roxanne aka Rox aka Roxy mwah xxx

about me

Hi all just writing on this blog to let you know a bit more about me as i don't know what else 2 write lol 
 I'm Roxanne I'm 25 26 in a few weeks woop woop i live in Bristol I'm a part time hairdresser not part time by choice i have m.e/cfs and fibromyalgia it all started in 2006 i  was working full time and was a party animal i just never stopped i believe this is where my illness came from it got worse in 2008 from the trauma of my brothers death by suicide.
My brother was 33 and to this day the family still don't know why but were all close and get through it together its still incredibly hard to deal with but you have 2 plod on 
 i have a older sis  and brother I'm the youngest i have 2  nephew's and a nice who i adore ages 16/15/7 
having this illness takes over ur life i wouldn't wish it on nobody Ive gone from being a party animal to living life as a recluse almost but positive thinking is a must if u wanna no more read this link its easier 2 explain

http://www.afme.org.uk/allaboutme.asp?table=contenttypetwo&id=4

i got wonderful friends and some family who support me and an amazing boyfriend who i couldn't ask for ne one better i have lost many friends and family believe its all fake i really wish it was..... any more questions just ask 
I'm mad for the colour  pink everything i own is pink i love it!!!
I'm gonna stop talking shit now cos i tend 2 go on abit loving n leaving u for NOW luv u all xxx